October 18, 2009 by Miss J
Someone once said to me that I was a very traditional person.
Of course, being who I am – or rather, was – I immediately took offense to that. I did not appreciate being told who I was, especially during a time when I was still growing into myself (not that I’m not still doing so). A time when I wanted to be anything but traditional, because traditional connotes the stereotypical Asian girl of being demure and submissive – and God forbid I turn out like that. It was an era full of hot-aired pride and determined egos.
Being who I am now, I still have problems with people trying to tell me who I am – as opposed to allowing me to discover for myself. However, I like to think I’m better with accepting the spoken words now. Because now, I understand that I can be traditional and yet, not demure/submissive – because really, God forbid.
As I’ve grown, I’ve come to realize the truth in that statement. Yes, I am quite traditional; and I’m okay with that. Really. And as odd as this will sound, I don’t think I’ll have become who I am now without that. It was, in an odd way, being knocked down a couple pegs – which I really needed. Because seriously, if you think I’m bad enough now.. Let me just say it was a LOT worse then.
I don’t know why, but it’s been on my mind for a while now. Just haven’t had the chance to really speak on it. I guess I just needed to have the words out.
Steve Hsieh – wishing you the best in life, wherever you are; and thanks for seeing something that I don’t think anyone saw. Thanks for helping me become who I am today.